Bit of Introspection.

I'm wondering if I should be trying to make a new movie or go back to reshooting A Visit With Theodore so that I have a good version of that to show people. I'm also wondering if Antibaby is film festival quality. I'm guessing it is, but I'm not totally sure. I have a real fear of having people hate my work. However, judging from the response it's gotten over the internet, I've got a lot of work to do. I'm also doubting that that might have been the best place to try and find an audience.

The fact remains that I've only been doing this since June and every short has been better than the last one. That has to be a good thing. I'm still feeling a little intimidated from showing my work to other people who've had more experience than me. That solves nothing.

It's also been far too long since I've unpacked the art supplies. Used to be my sketchpad kept me sane, now it's been literally years since I've even opened it up. It's probably no coincidence that I haven't really been happy for those years, either.

I'm at least ten years behind everyone else. I can't believe I'm thirty one years old and still just starting out, really. I'm also bothered that I forgot the shadow from the cheese tray on the painting I've posted here.

One day, when I look back on this, it will all make sense. Hopefully that day is closer than it is farther.

I apologize to all three of my readers for this bit of introspection. I shall be back to crass blathering fortwith.

Be excellent.